I'm not apologizing, not sure where you get that. Since day one I told you, we will have to deal with ourselves by ourselves if we never got help from the community. That's what we do. I opened the CCS because it has been hard, but if the community thinks I'm against Monero, who am I to change that? I'm still here, and will be here. I read and see what happens around, I give my feedback and still people think I'm against the community. Ryo people are hard, they are not going to change, their doing their job. We're doing ours. I'm still developing monero, the same as 4 years and won't stop. I believe in what we're doing. I don't have hard feelings towards you needmoney, you don't have to say I'm begging for money. I want to understand how they manage to attack the network. That's it, if we in the future can prevent or fix things is better to do them. Not sure if you knew but I was also silenced in the uncensored chat, meaning there are things I was saying that not only bothered you but someone else. Why aren't you there talking with ryo people? You know you will be pushed the same as you did, so I never pushed them, so I'm talking to them. I have received messages of support because what I'm doing. If I ever said something I said it because I felt it. People understand what they want to understand, I told you, understanding to understanders (you know the word understanders is not even a word). Keep doing your stuff, I'll do mine and help build the community.